It is not my intent to send mixed signals to the universe. They say, "it is what you seek, that most evades you." Well yes, I seek so many things that I could never find.
and so, I am at a fork in the road. While I see friends and loved ones who effortlessly find what I seek, bitterly, I extend my congratulatory praise. I don't mean to diminish their glow for their newly found treasures. But I hold to my faith and wish for the same mercy. I, too, wish to find my treasure.
So sure, not everyone's path is the same and I understand this, but can I get a break, really!
Professionally and academically, I have garnered many successes. Although, this is not mirrored in my personal life.The sad reality is that, the loved ones in whom I've been witness to their found treasures, do not have professional successes or even academic merits. Although that statement has no value, it is intended to justify my accomplishments.
Change is difficult.
So many times, have I wanted to start the ball rolling, this task has been more than a feat.
I have wanted to make the changes necessary in my life but the unfamiliarity of it all, makes me hesitate.
How I admire those who can easily pick up their belongings and transplant themselves to other locations.
So many times, I wanted to take that train to a distant city and assimilate my life to theirs, but the fear of it all leaves me frozen.
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